Just Listen That's All

I'm a father, three kids, two grandkids, and right now I'm on my last teenager, a boy, thirteen going on thirty. My wife and I have raised two girls, one is out on her own now, a husband and two beautiful daughters, the other is still home but about to go off to college.
My son is already starting to date, already starting to ask the tough questions. He has been told by myself and my wife that he is much too young to be dating. He's always had to learn things the hard way so I'm not at all surprised by the fact that he isn't taking our advice. In fact I knew he was going to be one of the hardest, if not the hardest, to get through to.
There is one thing I did learn from going through this twice before though, listening and not talking is easier than actually trying to give the advice. I used to think I had to have the answers when my kids got out of line or had a problem, I used to think I had to inject my two cents worth, but I was wrong. I've learned that my kids didn't want the lecture or for me to come up with the answer, all they wanted was someone to listen.
It took more than a few years for me to come to this conclusion, and it wasn't something I accepted easily, I'm the type of person who likes to inject my two cents worth, especially when it comes to my kids. It was my son who finally made me see the light so to speak, and he impressed me with the question he asked, unfortunately at the time it wasn't a question I had wanted to hear or answer, so after a few hours of yelling, asking why, and blaming, my son and I finally sat down and he talked, I listened, when we were done I told him I didn't have the answer. He told me it was ok, he didn't need the answer, he just wanted me to listen.
Now I'm not a guy who learns things easily, and to say I changed overnight would be a lie, but I have thought about that conversation several times since, and I did learn from it, even grew from it, now, well I guess I'm trying to understand it. Several times in my life I've grounded my kids, yelled at them, even thought about going toe to toe with them. Now I'm trying to understand and come to terms with how I might have been wrong all those years, understand where I could have done better. The past is so easy to pick apart, so hard to forget, but learning from it may just allow me to make better decisions.
And I have learned, and do honestly believe that the best way to actually get my son to talk to me is to just listen, as hard as it is, I try not to judge, or tell him how he's screwed up, I try not to tell him how to fix it until he asks, and it's working. He's talking to me, about everything, most of it I almost wish he wouldn't talk to me about, but at 13 he thinks of me as someone he can talk to, and no matter how this all plays out in the end, I'm glad to have this time. I'm not the enemy anymore.
For anyone reading this and looking for answers about teenagers, I really do wish you luck. What worked for me may never work for you, but if you're reading to find answers then you're actively trying to become a better parent, and I applaud your efforts. Don't give up, they're worth fighting for, and if you can help them make sense of these years you may just become their hero again.

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